Don’t Quit Smoking. Let smoking Quit YOU.


Today, I want to share a very personal but profound thing, which all smokers might find useful.

Till 2 yrs and 9 months ago, I was a smoker. I started smoking in 2007 and continued to do so till 2010. It started as a “casual curiosity” and then when I hit a major depression in 2010, I became an addict.

On 4th January, 2011, I lit my last cigarette, and put it out in the middle. I never touched a cigarette every again. I never even felt the need to smoke ever ever again. As of today, even the smell of cigarette smoke makes me feel like puking. (And I never lie)

How did this change happen?

I never tried to “quit smoking”. Never ever. I just sincerely did only one thing: I always brought awareness into my smoking, that is all. This is the advice I had heard my Guru Sri Nithyananda Swami give to someone on what he should do to quit smoking in one of his youtube discourses. He told the person not to struggle to quit, but just be aware, that’s all. I tried that.

Every time I lit a cigarette, I used to be aware of whether I’m really smoking because I want to, or it is bcz I am just restless & bored or is it out of anger or what. Reasons were different many times, but I never gave up my awareness of the reasons. Slowly, after a few months, I saw that I was smoking not bcz I really really wanted to smoke, but for some other stupid reason and sometimes for no reason at all! Slowly, I automatically started to smoke lesser and lesser, and stopped smoking when I wasn’t really feeling like it. And then finally, on the 4th of Jan, I lit a smoke, and suddenly I felt, “What the crap am I doing? I don’t need this poison. I am done with it.”

And I was really really really done with it.
I hope someone finds this useful. It really works, all you need is a little honesty with your own self and a little patience.

Shared this ONLY with the purpose of hoping to benefit someone somewhere. Most people feel ashamed to share abt these habits, even when they are healed of it, but I know, that I have nothing to lose, only to gain if someone gets enriched by this some day.


Why do we need a Guru?

“Why do we need a Guru?” 

That is almost the same as asking “Why do we need teachers/education?” Because no one has ever paid attention to teaching us about life and our own mind, we need a Guru. Just like we need someone to teach us History, Geography, Science, Maths etc, we need someone to teach us about LIFE – emotions, reactions, anger, jealousy, ego, dissatisfaction, mind, conflicts and how to deal with all these.

Yes, it is true, that we have all the answers within our own selves. I have no doubts about it. But, it is like having a bank account or Debit card, whose password/PIN you don’t know! What will you do with such a bank account? It may be having diamonds, but you don’t know how to access it! The Guru is the key, the password, the PIN to all the answers locked inside you.

That is why you need a Guru. He shows you the best of you, and makes you live it.

Kailash, the Ultimate Fulfillment

Image (c) Arti Agarwal
Image (c) Arti Agarwal

An eternal revelation, a mystery, a conscious fire, a happening, an immeasurable energy, an ocean of mysticism, a congregation of enlightened beings, a place beyond space and time – and, a completion of lifetimes. Kailash, the abode of Shiva. The place where the entire cosmos is centered, as explained by Swamiji (Swami Paramahamsa Nithyananda). The headquarters of the cosmos.

All these, and many more ideas cross my mind when I have to recount my Kailash yatra to anyone. Yet, I am not able to say much because I know that no matter what I say, I cannot do justice to Mahadev, the One who planted the desire in me to see Kailash, and who made my Kailash yatra not only possible, but also the ultimate fulfilment life can offer me.

The Kailash yatra was only the beginning of the actual yatra – life after Kailash! Even though words are to the real experience as puppets are to living beings, having no other way to put my Kailash experience on record, I will throw a flashback on one of my most intense experiences of the yatra.

The Kailash parikrama in Tibet starts from Darchhen and after an 8 km stretch of mountains and valleys comes the first halt at Dhirapuk. At Darchhen, where the parikrama starts, the Kailash looks the way I was expecting to see it – a holy mountain, at a great distance, high up in the sky, standing out majestically from the surrounding huge rocks. As the parikarma progressed, I soon lost sight of Kailash. Almost half way through the journey, as I was gazing happily at the hills and the rivers and the yaks, I suddenly got the shock of my life. I almost fell from my horse.

Kailash was at my eye level, almost as if just a few hundred feet away! It was definitely pretty far away still, I figured that out much later, but it was so huge that it felt like right next to me. Larger than life, in every sense. I felt it a huge disrespect to Kailash to be sitting on my horse, so I got down and started walking for the rest of the journey, unable to take my eyes off Kailash.

On reaching the Dhirapuk Guest House, I dumped my bags in the room assigned to me, and went out to gaze at Kailash. I sat there, at a little distance away from people, leaned against a rock, with the horses neighing in the background and the chilly wind reddening my nose, unwilling to close my eyes even to blink. I sat for several hours. How many, I don’t know. Though I had uncountable mystical experiences throughout the yatra, in the time stretch when I sat lost in Kailash, I had no such experiences. And yet, it was the most fulfilling experience from the entire yatra. It was almost as if I wanted to absorb the very air, the very breath of Kailash and take it away with me.

After coming back from the yatra, I still feel as if that experience of being lost in Kailash has become a very part of me, my life, my very thinking. I feel like I have nothing more to ask of life, and yet, there is an immense excitement to do so many things in life, out of gratitude to Swamiji and Mahadev. That, to me, is the ultimate completion with life.

First published in Nithyananda Times


This post is for all the followers and believers of Swami Paramahamsa Nithyananda. @Literates – Non believers need not comment, they will be deleted. Illiterates need not read the article.

I have been having weird dreams all night…and I think I am pretty disturbed too now…
But I was thinking abt everything…and the thing is, I love Swamiji so much not because of him as a person, but because of his teachings and everything he says. Because everything he says I agree with and believe in and it helps me.
What has saved me till now is those beliefs. Yes, those beliefs have made me very fond of Swamiji also, no doubt, but that is how it started. After all, he was just another human being to me the first time I met him. And that remains unchanged. Everything he has ever said to me till now has worked for me.
And that won’t change. It never will.
And Swamiji never tells us to do one thing or another. He just tells us to experience causeless love.
Maybe what I am saying might sound weird, but first of all I don’t and won’t believe in all this “scandal” thing.

Secondly, why does sex automatically have to translate to scandal ? If he forced the woman to have sex, yes it would be a scandal. If he has been abusing women and not been behaving decently with them, yes it is a scandal. If he had misbehaved with any of the woman who come to seek guidance from him, yes it would be a scandal. If he had been traffiking women, yes it would be a scandal.
But since when did sex become a scandal in itself ?
But why is being with a woman and sleeping with a woman automatically a scandal ?
Don’t pujaris and other gurus in all our temples have wives ? Why is it okey for them to have wives ?
Dint Jesus have a wife ? Magdalene. Why is it suddenly wrong for a man, who is enlightened, to be with a woman ? Don’t we all want that some day ? And if we say we don’t, aren’t we being nothing but just big fat hypocrites ?
Where did the concept of marriage and union come from ? Dint it originate in the idea of multiplying our happiness ? And I am extremely sorry to say this, but isn’t sex one of the ways to reach a meditative state too ? What made our mahrajas sculpt stories on it in the Khajuraho Temples ? Why the hell is sex suddenly unholy ? Why is it okey to sell Kamasutra in every other book store in India perfectly alright, but to talk of sex not alright ?

Its just that the media with their brainless ideas or utter lack of ideas portray everything in such a bad light that it rocks our worlds. Because that is what they want. To rock our worlds.

I hope this will help you too.
No one asked us to assume that Swamiji is not human and that he cannot do things we humans do. It is our fault if we assume that. He is a human sent in this mortal world to live with mortals. And we should not judge him for his mortal deeds since he doesn’t judge us for ours. That’s just how I see it.

May God bless Swamiji and help him. And may God bless all of us who are feeling like they have just gone through an earthquake and need to find our grounds.

After all, I don’t know how much time it will take to sort out this incredible mess, but I know, that the one thing that still saves me is everything that I have learnt from Swamiji. And I will still be thankful to him for that for the rest of my life. And for my blissful existence. May you all be happy and are able to find your happiness every day.

Nithyanandam !